Discouragement

I took a few days off from blogging.

That was mainly that I just had too much work to do for school; spending time blogging when I could be working on assessments. As I also was not quite sure what direction to go in for the next few posts, that made it easier to decide to just hold off.

I did feel bad about it, and that has been one source of discouragement.

I can't keep up with the times. 

I know that I don't truly have a big audience and the clearest explanation I write of anything has not changed the world, but still, what if I could help someone, but then slacked off?

Living under this administration is very discouraging. Unless you hate people; apparently, then it's exhilarating.

This administration is discouraging about school as well. Okay, instructional design is not only used for formal education, but there is so much working to destroy thought now! I see educational standards that I totally see the value of, and yet I know they would be considered "woke" and wonder how long they will last.

How soon will the federal government sue the state over SB 13?

That sounds like a time to fight, but fighting sounds like it requires energy. Just thinking about these guys makes me tired.

(Plus there was this article about AI use by students, though AI was one of the areas where I was thinking about writing more...) 

Also, since my father died I find I am a lot more aware of how much I miss my mother. 

It's just life, and life is hard and I generally feel inadequate and behind.

I am still learning a lot.

The last time I was a full-time student was 1996. It was a long time ago and there are a lot of things that have changed. When you are looking at K-12 education specifically, there is a lot of emphasis on teaching digital literacy and online safety and concepts that did not even exist when I was a student there myself. I keep feeling like I am having to reinvent the wheel, but it is not a total reinvention and I can ask people for help. 

It just takes a lot, and I don't feel like I have a lot.

So sometimes I may take breaks, rather than collapsing and giving everything up. I may not feel great about it, but I will try and be practical.

If I cannot do everything that I believe it would be good to do, I am still committed to having the things that I do be good.