The guiding goals

I have mentioned recently (more on the Sunday blog) that I am feeling compelled to ask more, like asking others for help.

It has been a reminder that even though I have grown past believing I need to take care of everyone else, my habits are still set in that mode.

Once upon a time I had briefly maintained a list of needs and wants so that if something came up I could remember what to say.

I probably need to do that again.

In addition, I have been getting very strong promptings over the past few months that I can't forget other people when my own issues are resolved.

I remember that clearly from when I was trying to get a new primary care provider for my mother and finding so many obstacles. It was eventually solved, but that is one person among many facing similar issues.

I can't forget that.

I am also running into it now where I have been facing multiple failed attempts to get one test completed. This is not an issue with my knowledge of the subject matter, but a technical issue with the testing application.

That is still unresolved. As far as I can tell, it's a not great tool that works mostly well enough that when there are issues the various organizations can keep passing the buck in a manner they would not be able to get away with if it were more consistent. I can find a lot of complaints, but not really any solutions. I assume most people eventually use another system or at a different time of day or something, and then put it behind in relief.

Honestly, that sounds pretty good, but it does not appear to be my path.

So the guidelines for 2025 are to remember myself and my needs as well as others and their needs.

I have not been particularly balanced in this area, ever.

Here's to new beginnings.